Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Plato's cave

The shadows dance in front of me
And I enjoy them
All my life I need not think
For everything was in front of me

Were there even chains?
Were there things that bound me to this place?
I did not know that the metal was around my neck
And around me feet, my hands

Then someone unlocked me
I then understood what they meant by free
The shadows, there was more to them
It was casted by the painful thing behind

The painful thing, I know now
Is called fire, creates light
There was more to shadows, I am sure
Because to have shadows, there must be light

The hand led me out of what I learnt to be the cave
In the 'open', as he taught me
Was the air, and around was trees, water
But overseeing all was the Sun

I start to think, where did the trees
Water and Sun come from?
Did they appear out of no where?
Or did someone created them

I start to question more I needed more
There was more to life than this
Just like shadows needed light,
There must be something behind all this!

Then he told me it was time
Time for what? I asked, but no reply
Only the vice grip on my wrists
Forcing me back into where I came from

No! I shouted, seeing the limitedness of my view
But The chains again bound my neck my hands my legs
These were chains! We were Prisoners
The shadows were illusions of freedom

What illusion? The one to my right asked
What cave? The one to my left asked
Both of them were obliged to speak
Upon hearing my voice

I started to explain what I saw
Started to tell of the cave we were in
But one doubted while the other jeered
Both amused by my unbelievable adventure

In the cave again, I constantly struggle
Struggle against the chains that bound
I'm a prisoner in this cave, if I was not to be free
Why free me in the first place?

(I got this inspiration from plato's cave)

Monday, January 30, 2006

- untitled -

things unforeseen,
occurred.
deeds carefully planned,
committed.
feelings bottled up,
expressed.
tears that gathered,
fell.
hearts laid bare,
trampled.
logic and rhetoric,
discarded.
memories fond,
forgotten.
obligations twice-fold,
stayed.

life

quietly listening to
the sounds of the night,
memories playing in my mind.
sounds, scents, sights..
once upon a time..
so familiar.. are they mine?

so near, yet so far.
a tear rolls down my cheek,
yet i can't complain.
oh how unfair this is.

looking around me,
i recognize nothing.
unfamiliar faces; objects,
stare back at me,
watching..
ever watching.

there's a different look in their eyes,
something i just can't define.
everything in the world seems so unfair..
or is it just me?

life seems so messed up now
don't know how i feel or think anymore.
think i've lost myself
somewhere, somehow.
i want to go back,
back where i can find.. me.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Stabbed, hurt, pain, tears

The past hurts I inflicted
The past pain I gave
Now comes back in torrents
In waves that overwhelms me
My heart is aching

I'm guilty of not being real
Guilty of changing my mind
Guilty of commitment unfulfilled
I'm presenting my heart
To be stabbed

Tears seem to never dry up
I thought they would
Tears come and come again and again
Again and again and again
I'm crying again

Forgiveness is too far a goal
I'm reaching for a miracle
Why? My head might scream insanely
Why must you injure me again?
I'm dying in your hatred

I can no longer forgive myself
Your goal is achieved, my guilt multiplies
If only you could see this
Then maybe even forgive or try and understand
I'm dying in your hatred

I'm once again shrinking past my fake face
Once again hiding my hurt
I don't want this to drag, but the battle rages
Myself against myself, monster versus monster
I'm happy again, to the world.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

the seed

The seed stumbles as she tries to walk
Barely a seedling, yet lost in the city
She cries and askes for the sun
But her tears just adds to the rain

Cut by the granite road
She still drags herself along
Beaten and bleeding
The blood leaves a trail

The seedling runs faster, now
Stronger and more accustomed
She sees the end of the road
The start of the fertile soil

Finally, she is home!
Adrenaline fills her entire body
A mighty jump, the last of her suffering thrown away
Into the comfortable nest of sand and stones

Beauty is now her life
No longer the little unsightly seed
She's a flower, beautiful
Strong and able.

Silver crystal

The crystals that dare not fall
From the sadness of one's eyes
Rolls about, defiant
Wanting to escape

Within the silver crystals
Is a tinge of redness
The redness grows and throbs
With each second that it protests

Helplessness overcome
Who can help the one but the one?
The silver fades away to darkness
Darkness triumpt

Then, no longer able to resist
The murky tears roll down
The tears no longer pure
No longer silver
But dark mud that stains the cheeks

No longer pure.

Saturday, January 14, 2006

may not be

Drenched, I'm slapped by the raindrops
Hope's, blocking my way through
well I know I can't
'cos I'm not in control

Fade, the memories are losing
Way, too much to store them in
well I know I can't
'cos I'm not in control

I may be able to see
But am not able to think
I may be able to do
But am not able to feel

*don't know how to continue, think about it sometime later*

Have you ever thought?

every moment's just another moment
things come and go
so swiftly.

every chance's another opportunity
you'll gain or lose
all up to you.

have you ever thought of holding on
holding on infinite something
have you ever thought of letting go
perhaps its better in a way
or another

every action's filled with emotions
have you thought about what
he's thinking?

every opinion's a unique thinking
what's there in your
personalised mind?

have you ever thought of holding on
holding on finite something
have you ever thought of letting go
perhaps its better in a way
or another

every person has their point of view
every one can make their own choice
every person decides on what to do
every one gives thanks or simply forget...

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Waiting

i know tt there's a place
where someone has taken up
and that special u is just there
just out of my reach
i dunno when or where
i can finally see ur face
but i know when the time comes
its ur arms i'll fall into
so i'll keep waiting
till my dreams become reality
where u're there when i need u
to cry on ur shoulder
to laugh in ur embrace
to shiver in ur arms
so tell me when u're here with me
for i do not know
i cant find u yet
although i know its just a matter of time
so tell mi when u're here with me
so i'll not let the chance go by
haha.. so tell mi then..
=P


this poem was written in 24/5/2004. it was the first ever poem that i wrote. kind of brings back memories.

P.S notice all the short forms. Shows the big big difference between then and now.

Monday, January 09, 2006

Destiny

Looking to the night sky
I feel a sense of peace
Sure of myself
Sure that this time
I'm walking on the right track

Feeling the wind in my face
I'm refreshed once again
Sure that you're real
Not imagation
I'm walking on the right track

How many times had life made fun
And twisted minds to
Turn away
But my heart's pounding fast
As I anticipate
Destiny

Crying with my head turned away
I try to hide my tears
My heart filled with
Emotions so real
I don't know where I'm headed to

Closing my eyes and leaning back
Letting go of everything else
I'm so weak sometimes
But now I'm strong
With the new you in my life

How many times had life made fun
And twisted minds to
Turn away
But my heart's pounding fast
As I anticipate
Destiny

In your life

In your life
A new story begins
New colors and sights
Unbelievable

In your life
A new begining starts
New people new feelings
Miracle

Of the so many people here
Of the world so wide and big
Fate had been kind
So nice and devine
To make you appear

Of the so many routes to walk
Of the so many choices
Life had put me
Into your path
So we would meet this time

*In your life
A new story begins
New colors and sights
Unbelievable

In your life
A new begining starts
New people new feelings
Miracle*

Through rose tinted glasses
I face the new world
Drowning in sweetness
In you

*