Especially for you(s)
I fell, deep down
I doubted, even myself
I forgot, my own purpose
I became, a monster in itself
You stood, patient kind
You reprimanded, caring loving
You remembered, the wishes I had
You turned me, back to who I am
So sometimes I would wonder
If I deserve what I have
If I should experience such
Such true and pure friendship
If a word thanks is a gift
I would rather it not be
Let it be a memory to dwell
Forever safe and sound in our minds.
colours of our world
green & golden
vitality sprouts
no one knows
what happens next
white & silver
the innocent
the wise
the more we mix
the more we get
grey,
the unknown
rather the unclear
soon it'll be ugly
& dirty.
blue & red
worries, panics;
white & pink
weak, healthy
forever together.
pink,
the ever crazy one
pale or bright
all of a sudden
running
brown,
the ever lazy one
dark or light
more often than ever
screaming
one day we'll know
& testify
that colours mix
into a better
colour.
*to say the truth i don't know exactly what i'm writing lol*
ah by the way is me michelle write one i can't chage the colour...dunno y.. haha.. help me change k haha...
the 'last' day
Beneath our feet
The moon's reflection shimmers
Across the lake
Where the boats have put out their lights
And it's time.
Dressed in nice garments
The only time we could envision
Each other, grown up
Suddenly I wish that I could never become an adult
It's time.
The word struck us
Brutally, mercilessly
But no matter how painful
We found ourselves just looking, in silence
It's time for it.
I wonder why we felt that way
After all, the word's just a word
It won't hurt
The tears rolled in my eyes, but I won't let them fall
It's not going to be the last day we'll stand like this
Together.
thoughts...
i tried to concentrate on my work,
but i just couldn't do it.
my thoughts drifted,
as bits and pieces of our past and future lay
scattered in front of my mind's eye,
just out of my reach..
i tried to imagine us;
separated,
each living our own lives..
but the only pictures that
i can see, are those
filled with a vast emptiness..
i wonder what the future holds
for each of us in particular..
in time,
would we forget each other
and the four years we had
spent in tears and laughter?
was it any of us,
who held this friendship together?
but now that we're here,
let's treat our time with each other
like we've never before,
while we're still here, for each other..
life goes on regardless of our wishes..
we can't turn back time,
nor freeze it to preserve moments..
but we can cherish each and every day
that we shared; our laughs, jokes,
tears, sadness, craziness and smiles..
we all know,
that nothing lasts forever..
time passes and people drift apart..
but no matter what happens in life,
remember that we were once,
and will always be,
a trio, a clique, a family..
05 sePtemBer 2oo5,
11+ pM..
** finally finished editing tizz.. hehez.. tizz is for ma two dearest frenz - muah twin aka orangie aka jess aka xi wen n muah mummy aka cute michelle (cute. riiiite. =X).. yupp!! hehez.. takkaire always yeah? no matter which school we go too just dont forget muah... else i whack you two den u noe.. wahahahas.. c i so nice bully u two.. =D hehez.. lurve you gals loads!! =) **
i'm trying..
i'm trying not to let it affect me
but it does..
i'm trying to keep myself from crying
but i cant..
i'm trying to be strong
and control myself and my emotions..
i'm trying to be brave
and hold back the tears..
i'm trying to be so many things
that i dont know who i am or
what i've become anymore..
maybe all i should do is try to be me.
but i don't know what it means to be me..
i don't know what to think or what to do..
i don't know what you are trying
to accomplish..
i don't know who you've become..
the tears just fall..
it's so hard to control how i feel..
and i dont know how to tell..
the people inside me..
there are people inside me -some i know wellothers are lurking in the shadowsa few i love and am proud ofa few i'm ashamed ofand sometimes try to discardthe people inside meoften disagree with one another -when one thinks i should dietanother wants to eatwhen one is boastfulanother reprimands her for being a braggartthe people inside mehave different inspirations - one is ambitious and visibleanother wants to lead a quiet lifeone takes work with her on ski vacationsanother prefers lounging in the sunso i must live with passionyet try for moderation - with selfconfidence yet with doubts -looking out for myselfyet being there for othersfor i am all of the people inside me** ok.. i copied this from a book i saw in hugs and kisses.. think that's the store name.. hehez.. **
Living in the past
I get torn open
I get sewn back
I felt pain
I felt hurt
I get beaten up
I get thrown down
I felt sadness
I felt sorrow
I threw things about
I chased them away
But all I know is
That now it's not the same.
They were behind
Fallen crystals splash open
She cries uncontrollably
Shaking violently
Trembling.
No one sees her
They don't care
Walking nonchalently
Past.
Yet someone stands behind
Wanting to help
Eyes wet
Crying.
If she turned behind
She could see
Finally notice
Them.
Deep
Time comes and marches away
Tears come and goes away
Yet I still stand alone in the rain
The only one who cries in pain
You never seemed to understand
And yet you still stay by your stand
Blaming me and hating me
Not telling me the things you mean
I try to understand why
As I remain tied
But still I can't undo the knot
That has seen been with you not
Maybe I was wrong and you were right
Maybe on one day that night
You can finally help me see
The things that has been covered by the sea.
