all messed up
Waiting,
Full of patience.
Watching, silently,
An observer.
Hurt,But too afraid to speak.
Hiding, cowardly,
Behind the lies.
Denial,
An obvious state.
Crying, brokenly,
Deep within the glass walls.
Confused,Hesitant of the future.Uncertainty, seemingly,
Rules every step.
Contradictions,
A bundle of different signals.
Fear,
Of rejection.
-
Somewhere along the way
My heart got stomped on.
I picked up the pieces,
And tried to carry on.
Everything was the same,
Or so I told myself.
In time, my heart mended,
The pain and the scars faded.
I forgot why, I forgot how,
I forgot when, I forgot you.
I forgot what, I forgot where,
I even forgot who.
Only now, when I’ve thought
I’ve finally moved on,
Did I realize,
The scope of the damage done.
When did I learn
To shut my heart?
When did I become
So afraid to trust?
I’m so afraid of so many things,
But most of all, when did I become
So afraid to.. so afraid..
To love?
rain..
The rain’s sending me
Sweet songs of sympathy
Droplets to wash away my sorrow
Cold winds to ease my pain
Grey skies to comfort me
Oh rain! That you would
Wrap me in your cold embrace!
I long for nothing more than
To be in your arms,
Cold, wet and forgotten.
How I wish I could
stroll outside right now.
Feel the rain on my skin,
Soaking my clothes and the wind
On my cheeks.
Raindrops would mix with
My tears, cleansing it all,
Washing them off,
So I would be free again.
And happy.
